This blog is about what I've been interested in for quite sometime. Unknown to many but I'm looking for an explaination as to why I seek this and how I could tell my Fiancee that I'm interested in the subject of BDSM.
I've been wanting to experiment with being a submissive for my mistress (a.k.a Girl Friend). Although I don't know how I should present this to her or even how to present it to her. I've Told her that we should go toy shopping together (she's ok with that). I told her that I wanted a night where she was in total control and that I would have to listen to her every demand and that I would have to do anything she told me I had to do (here she got skiddish she wants ME in total control of her). I've brought up handcuffs and/or restraints (she's ok with that too). But, I want more... I want to feel the pain that she would inflict upon me. I want to be forced to do things that I don't like until I begin to like them. I want to feel helpless with her knowing that I want to make her happy and that everything I do is for her.
Most of all though I want to know what is the easiest way to make my dreams a reality with out losing the love of my life. I know that when I'm in total control she's always happy but, I want her to have that power. I would like it if she knew what it was like to have the power and know how to use it and what to do with it. I want her to know what it is like to be in control. If you've read this far you have the idea.
To explain my girlfriend though it's a little complicated. She is a very independent woman. She has never liked me (or any guy for that matter) to eat her pussy. She is not at all interested in anal sex what so ever. Yet, I know that inside she wants the power. There have been numerous times that she has told me to not move my hands then proceeded to flick the head of my cock, play around my ass hole, and rough handle my balls along with squeeze my nipples with force. She knows that I get off on it and I've told her that I like when she does those things to me. She is always joking about anal play with me but, I tend to shy away a little and she then becomes more interested in going right into sex. One time though, when she was joking around about sticking a finger or two into my ass I told her to go ahead she merely giggled and then resorted to a blow job. I didn't mind all that much but, I'm almost positive that - that BJ would have been so much better if she had a finger or two in the dark.
If you have any suggestions on how I should talk to or present this to her please let me know in the comments section of this blog for now. I'm going to have an E-mail that all suggestions could go to.
